Love and Hate

I was doing perfectly fine before you came along. What's the point of putting other people down? Maybe you don't like yourself. "I love myself, what you eat don't make me shit!" You say that you don't compare me to other people but what is it called when you feel I'm not doing as well as someone else. (Subconscious mind: He needs some sort of coping mechanism to deal with his imperfections).

So there's a higher probability that my brother will be more successful because he finished medical school? Where does that leave me? Should I not be offended by that?(Subconscious mind: You're easily offended by everything; you're very emotional and extremely insecure). Am I just a self-wallowing a piece of shit that decided to teach overseas and backpack through five third world countries. (Subconscious mind: You need to start believing in yourself) I'm incapable of being a daughter?Well maybe you don't know how to be a father to me.

Do I get angry because I love you or hate you?

I'm not sure what I feel when we argue. I can't even make sense of my emotions. You are forcing me to deal with things I'm not ready for. Talking with you is quite refreshing, and sometimes the love I have for you is a bit misconstrued. Maybe, I should withdraw from you emotionally. "Be very careful about the choices that you make."

You see, I could never look at you as a father, but only as a man. That's what troubles me. Our relationship seems parallel to that of a high school couple. (Subconscious mind: He's manipulating you're losing control).

I don't get angry because I love you or I hate you.......

I get angry because I don't know what to do with you.......

I get angry because I don't know what I want from you......

I get angry because I think I'm falling in love with you........